Chapter One
YOU KNOW THOSE DAYS YOU'RE forced to face your fear or suck it up and deal with the pain? Those days when consequences for your actions come at a high price regardless of your choice? That was the day I met the ghosts from a case I call the Dentist's Burial Ground.
Fear has a way of numbing the pain.
It’s right there, throbbing under the surface, but the feeling connected to the
pounding doesn’t really exist as adrenaline pumps through your veins masking it,
fooling you into believing it is there. I was in that moment now. It was
like the soles of my feet were glued to the cement sidewalk. It was the reason
my newest, best-human friend was there at my side.
I could
take on ghosts, solve mysteries, and face public ridicule, but I was terrified
of visiting the dentist. Irrational, I know. But telling yourself something is
irrational doesn’t make the feeling go away. Facing your irrational fears
rarely helps you get over it. It is harder than one thinks. I know, I’m
studying psychology. The mind creates a programed response to a stimulus
usually resulting from a past event. That programmed response becomes
reflexive.
Whatever
past experience caused me to respond with the fight or flight response was
unknown, I’d been fearful of dentists since I was a small child.
“Come
on, girlfriend.” Mia pulled me into the office. “The sooner we get over this
the faster you can get on with your life and forget about all of this.” She
pulled me up to the receptionist counter. “Hello, Bernie,” she read the pretty
middle aged lady's name tag, whose smile was inviting and warm.
The woman with curly brown hair and soft hazel eyes matched the soothing atmosphere of the office. One wall was a glass with gentle
water falling between the sheets which lined the back wall made of dark stone. The sounds
of the water splashing mixed nicely with the music being pumped through the
intercom system. There were only a few customers in the waiting room, one
flipping through a magazine and the other playing with her phone.
“Wonderful,”
Bernie’s comforting voice ran over me like the water in the wall, she handed me
a clipboard, “if you’ll fill this out we’ll get your room prepped.”
“And you’ll
be putting me under anesthesia?”
“We’ll
be prepared to do that if needed.”
“It will
be needed.” I told her as I took the clipboard with shaky fingers.
“She’s a
little nervous about the procedure,” I heard Mia explain as she directed me to
a seat in the waiting room. I shuffled one foot
in front of the other taking note how hard it was with each step, like I was
wading through quicksand, the mental resistance at every movement was
remarkable and scary at how the mind could control your perception of the
world.
“Don’t
worry, we’ll take good care of her.” Bernie’s warm voice ran over me,
reinforcing the comforting ambiance they had created in the place, deep down I
knew it was a façade, an attempt to put those dealing with similar
fears that I was facing and it was appreciated.
After I
filled out the paperwork I was led back to the dreaded chair by the sweet,
approachable Bernie, which was short for
Bernadette I learned through the small talk she attempted to engage me in. I don’t think I’ve met a person as kind as her, she was so sweet I wondered if it was all an act. Was she fake? If she was, she was a very
good actress.
As I
climbed into the metal chair covered in blue pastel flowered cushions, I
switched on the soothing music I downloaded to my iPod so I could focus on
something other than the blood rushing to my brain and the overwhelming desire
to run and never look back.
Remember this is an irrational fear, I attempted
to rationalize with myself, knowing my inner voice would do very little to
appease my anxiety. It didn’t work, but my scientific brain had to try. My
inner self simply laughed at me. Yeah,
right.
Bernie placed a bib over my
chest and I cringed from her touch. She placed a gentle hand on my shoulder, “we’re
going to take some ex-rays now so we can see what is happening with that
throbbing tooth. Are you ready?”
I
nodded, afraid of what my voice would sound like if I spoke. The ex-rays only
helped to set off the pain from the metal bar that was placed in my mouth.
“I’ll be
back after we take a look at the pictures of your tooth, sweetheart. Can I get
you some water while you wait?”
“No,
thank you.”
Bernie
left and I tried to relax. Unfortunately, that wasn’t something I could do.
Nightmarish visions of the chair locking me into place and sucking me into a
dark and deadly place appeared every time I closed my eyes. I tried to focus on
the relaxing music in my earphones, music that could take me back in time to
better places but there were very few memories of better places. The song
echoing in my ears at the moment reminded me of my detective Dash. Handsome,
strong, daring Dash. Curious, inquisitive, and suspicious Dash. He knew
something was strange about me. He knew I hid a secret from him, who wouldn’t?
I’ve been involved in multiple crime scenes since he’s met me. Fortunately, he
was interested enough in me to train me in self-defense. Self-defense wouldn’t help me from the terror
I was feeling in this moment. Heck, being able to defend myself would do little to help me with the ghosts but it might aid in the
investigations I get pulled into and it also gave me an excuse to be close to
him.
I
focused on the pastel blue walls of the examine room. Everything about this
place was geared toward comfort and soothing, too bad it didn’t help the
irrational fear pounding through my veins. The next song came on through the mini ear buds, a song that made me think of high school, that wasn't a good time in my life. I
had difficulty fitting in. I was always trying to float under the radar so I
could be unseen. I was sure anyone who paid attention to me could see the
words, ‘she sees dead people’ written across my forehead… another irrational
fear. No one knew, did they? Surely not. No one said anything and people were
happy to ignore me. Especially, the mean girls. There was only one girl in our
class that made an effort, Lila. She was so sweet, nothing like the
mean-popular girls you would see in movies and she was the one everyone
gravitated towards.
“Hello,
Miss O’Grady, I’m Doctor Lavender and it looks like there is a nasty abscess
under your gums. I’m afraid the tooth will need to be removed. Lucky for you,
it’s a wisdom tooth and will cause very little issue cosmetically once it is
removed.”
I
gulped, “you’re going to pull my tooth?”
The kind
looking doctor pushed his wire rimmed glasses up his small nose, “I’m afraid
so.” He didn’t look like
he could hurt a fly that was until I noticed that he looked like a famous actor. He sort of reminded me of the actor Jason Alexander from
the Seinfeld television show. After watching all of those episodes growing up,
the association wasn’t helpful. The character he played on that show could be devious at times.
“Isn’t
there something else you can do?”
He shook
his head, “nothing that I would suggest. The tooth is growing sideways and
forcing itself on your molar. If this continues it will damage the molar and
also damage the rest of your teeth.”
“But…”
“I promise
you, this is really your only option.” Doctor Lavender slipped on his blue
latex gloves. “I’ll make the procedure as quick and painless as possible.” He
nodded to Bernie, “we’re going to start with a local numbing shot around the
tooth.”
“No.” My
eyes grew large as Bernie came toward me with a large syringe. “No, can’t you
put me under? I don’t think I can handle being awake for this.”
Doctor
Lavender placed a steadying hand on Bernie’s arm, “why don’t we start with the
gas.”
Bernie
nodded.
Once the
gas was in effect the rest of the appointment went well. I was at ease, feeling
like I was three sheets to the wind, I even remarked at how my feet felt like
they were spinning around like helicopter propellers and I was worried they
would fly me away.
When the
tooth was removed I remembered Bernie and Doctor Lavender telling me I did a
great job, but when they left me alone I was suddenly surrounded by what seemed
like twenty ghosts.
A woman
with dark hair and olive skin tilted her head and examined me, “you can see us?”
“Yes,
where is Michael? Abel? Why am I seeing you right now?” I asked in a whisper.
“Your
inhibitions are down, Cassie, I can’t shield you from them while you’re in this
state.” Michael looked apologetically.
“Will
you help us?” Various voices asked, they were weaving in and out of my vision
like waves of the sea.
I was beginning to get motion
sickness.
I closed my eyes to the harsh reality surrounding me. The reality that I've tried for years to run away from. The
voices remained, begging me to help them. Help them? I couldn’t even help
myself was the last thought I had as I allowed myself to escape into the dark abyss.
copyright @JamiBrumfield 2016
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